May.

Lately I've been writing in my paper journal again while this space has become more of a place to keep photos I love together. I think I'll come back here more as things evolve but for now I'm happy with the way things are.

<3

New house is slowly coming together.

My best girls came to visit.

An amazing view & comfy robes in our hotel room in DC.

Officially became this sweet boys godmama.

All the kids got christened in the church my sisters and I grew up in.

I love this time of year.

April.

April has been incredibly busy and exciting. The never ending winter finally gave in to the sunshine, which was really all I needed. I saw my goddess, Stevie Nicks, in concert and it was one of the greatest things in my life. We moved into a new house and let's just say I'm snickering at anyone who thought I'd make grown up decisions when it came to painting because while the main level is modern and beautiful, the upstairs has wall colors ranging from hot pink to mint to purple to yellow and it looks like Easter exploded. Heh. We snuck away to Durham for a quick Haley visit before heading to Outer Banks, NC for a weekend away at the beach. I'm hoping I can finally slow down this next week and get the house together nicely and have some time for myself. 

Moving.

We're in the process of moving again! No where particularly fun this time, just a few miles down the road, BUT this will be Our Home for the next several years, which is something completely new to me. Since moving out six years ago, I have moved ELEVEN times. A few of them were just for a month or so, but still.. that is just dumb. Really dumb, considering how annoying it is to move. 

I'm kind of terrified to commit to living somewhere for a few years since I get so bored of places so quickly - what's up with this water pressure? Did this closet get smaller? Why don't we have a giant back yard? - are things I usually complain about after a few months. WELL NO MORE, SARAH, because this time I'm locked in and being a grown up and learning how to commit. I mean, this is a house that we picked with having a real human child in mind, which is even weirder. 

I'm so excited though! I love moving so much, I love the feeling of change and something new and all the possibilities. I'm painting all the rooms in all the colors to wash away the memories of beige walls and beige carpets of past apartment living. There's tons of windows and natural light and a sunroom (not technically but that's what I'm calling it) which I'm filling with plants and plants alone. There's a big bathtub under a big window where I'm going to spend my life when I'm not on the deck in my hammock that will be bought immediately. There's a backyard for Oliver so I don't ever have to put pants on to let him poop in the morning. GLORIOUS.

"I urge you to please notice when you are happy, and exclaim or murmur or think at some point, 'If this isn't nice, I don't know what is.'" 

- Kurt Vonnegut

I haven't felt much like writing lately, but I'm still here and I thought maybe I'd acknowledge life these days. Because it's fantastic. Nothing has changed other than my mind and I realize now that's all that needed to be done. I still have plenty of grump days (HELLO, gemini rising and moon) but I've noticed such a shift in my mind set and it has left me feeling better, physically and emotionally, than I have in a while. A long while. 

Practicing Abraham-Hicks is really what started it for me, and even though it took a few weeks (or months) to kind of get it down, it's finally coming to me naturally and I'm able to release the negative things as quickly as they come. Maybe it's also being in the last year of my almost 20 year journey of having mercury in my natal chart in retrograde, I don't know, but I'll take it. 

I know that I'll always be an up and down person, I know that i'll always complain about where I'm living, what job I'm doing, etc., but right now I feel really, really great and I thought I'd take Kurt's advice and exclaim that this sure is fucking nice. 

Austin.

I've thought about writing about Austin a few different times, but I just don't have the words. It was literally perfect. Those friends. Those friends of mine deserve to be called something more than friends, because they make me so goddamn happy. Visiting them is like I'm visiting my old self at the same time, the happiest version of me that exists within, waiting for the right moments to be free. And it's always with them. I'm almost never happier than when I'm in the city I love surrounded by the most beautiful, true friends I have. I smiled and laughed all day. My energy was higher than it's been since.. well, probably the last time I was there. Everything felt right. Everything was perfect. Tacos every day, talking until 4am, from couches to fancy hotels to borrowed beds. To Hamilton Pool to Liberty to Sunday Funday being the most perfect day to ever exist. I am so, so happy to have it in my life. Those moments are what I live for. 

January, you're cool.

Two weeks into the new year and 2013 is treating me fabulously. 

A new spiritual guide that is seriously changing my life

A new job with an amazing mindset 

Fried chicken for the first time since going GF / GF menu at PF Changs

House hunting

 

A trip to the mountains which somewhere along the way became my favorite place to be, my energy instantly lifts and I feel a different sense of calm and clarity

A flan anniversary and tomorrow my first born turns 5

Keep it up, year.

four // one.

08/09ish

Four years ago today I decided to give Chuckie, someone who had become my best friend in just a few months, a shot in the romance department. By romance I mean we went to a strip club, took too many shots of whiskey, and made out at 5 a.m. From then on we were pretty much inseparable, which was really weird as someone who pretty much hated anyone who crowded my Independent Lady Personal Space. 

New Orleans, 2009

Around the time we met I was in a phase of my life where I was newly single simply because I was craving freedom. I was living alone, making my own money, and was generally a HBIC. The thing about Chuckie is he let me be ME from the start. Even when we were together every single day, he never crowded my space. If I wanted to go out all night and party, it was cool. If I wanted to be alone for days and not talk to anyone, he understood and didn't make it about him. He is still this way and it makes our relationship so, so easy.

Paris, 2010

He is the most laid back dude in the world and I love it. I can count on one hand how many times he's really gotten mad at me (which was always me starting it)/yelled (once) and we've only ever had one real fight. This is a wonderful balance for someone like me who yells all the time (I'm just loud OKAY). He goes along with my road trips and traveling and moving talks/actions even though he would be completely happy staying in the same place for the rest of his life. He let's me be a selfish little brat and doesn't judge me for it. 

Fredericksburg, TX, 2011

I was never interested in getting married or having kids, figured maybe I'd have one in my 30's but it didn't really matter to me. Chuckie changed that. He is the only dude I would ever want to be married to and I can.not.wait. to have a baby with him (WEIRD, RIGHT? DON'T TELL ANYONE). He is going to be the best dad. He's so fun and loving and caring. I've already accepted that he'll be the favorite parent, but I think I'm okay with that because I'll probably favor him over myself anyway. 

Savannah, 2012

Well I came here with the intention of just saying "this dude is cool, today is special", I'm not sure how it turned into a whole ramble about us. But it's okay because he's my favorite and today is my favorite day. Four years ago was amazing, two years ago was even better, and last year was the best. I'm so excited for what the next few years (and you know, rest of our lives) will bring.