Meditation

I'll be honest - meditation is not something that comes easily to me.  I have a non stop mind, it takes me hours to fall asleep even with sleeping pills and every little thought spirals into something from a million years ago and it kind of drives me nuts.  Sometimes I sit down to meditate and things won't stop popping in my head and I'm opening my eye every other minute to look around and feel like I'm just sitting there bored when it's only been two minutes.  Other times, I fall into such deep meditations that I can't even lift my head up. 


I have a small spiritual corner in my room -

Pretty bad photo but I snapped it after a great meditation.  I always try to light a few candles, and I always smudge myself and the space.  I ask that all of my angels and guides surround me and help take me to a level of deep relaxation and show me any messages they may have for me.  I've listened to a lot of different music during meditations but I've found two specific songs that always put me in a trance like meditation-

Of course it isn't the same for everyone, but so far this works best for me.  I think I'll pick up a book on meditation eventually but I'm lazy and would rather try something out than read about it first. 

Spiritual Sundays?? :)

I've gone back and forth with sharing my personal beliefs on here as to not be judged about something that means a lot to me and already gets criticism in real life, but really, why wouldn't I?  I  started this blog because I've become horrible about writing in my journal and I don't want to lose all these days in my mind.  I really want to write in this continuously for years to come so I can look back on The Best Years Of My Life.  There's no reason I shouldn't be myself and be completely open.


I grew up with an extremely spiritual mother and a very catholic father.  I could write a book on all the stories my mom has, from the time she was a kid and she saw Jesus/the devil to when she was working in the psychiatric ward and a possessed woman attacked her to the past few years where she became a completely different person because entities attached themselves to her in a moment of weakness.  Yeah.. kind of hard to explain to people without them thinking you're insane.  But it's all I've ever known.  I've seen things, felt things, and heard things all my life.  I have a lot of 'psychic' moments/dreams/feelings, and above all else I've always been told and considered myself to be a healer/empath.  It seems so weird when I type it out.. but it is what it is.  


My goals in life right now are to move to a spiritually awakened town (Asheville is the plan) and eventually open up a small shop and have a room for healings, readings, etc. as well as weekly classes and meditations.  I don't care much for having a shop, but everyone I've talked to has recommended it as a way to bring in people, as well as continuing to do esthetics.  I was recently complaining to a psychic/healer that I know about how hard it is for me to work full time with my health and she laughed and said "of course your body is stopping you from working, you're not doing what you're meant to do." and it totally hit me and I realized that's a huge part of my problem.  My body let's me know things a little more intensely than I'd prefer (I'll talk about it in another post) and ever since I've been really trying to meditate and focus on what I need to be doing and bring it to myself. I think my first step will be writing about it here, which I'm going to try to do every week, whether it be about new things I'm learning or past experiences and stories.