I've gone back and forth with sharing my personal beliefs on here as to not be judged about something that means a lot to me and already gets criticism in real life, but really, why wouldn't I? I started this blog because I've become horrible about writing in my journal and I don't want to lose all these days in my mind. I really want to write in this continuously for years to come so I can look back on The Best Years Of My Life. There's no reason I shouldn't be myself and be completely open.
I grew up with an extremely spiritual mother and a very catholic father. I could write a book on all the stories my mom has, from the time she was a kid and she saw Jesus/the devil to when she was working in the psychiatric ward and a possessed woman attacked her to the past few years where she became a completely different person because entities attached themselves to her in a moment of weakness. Yeah.. kind of hard to explain to people without them thinking you're insane. But it's all I've ever known. I've seen things, felt things, and heard things all my life. I have a lot of 'psychic' moments/dreams/feelings, and above all else I've always been told and considered myself to be a healer/empath. It seems so weird when I type it out.. but it is what it is.
My goals in life right now are to move to a spiritually awakened town (Asheville is the plan) and eventually open up a small shop and have a room for healings, readings, etc. as well as weekly classes and meditations. I don't care much for having a shop, but everyone I've talked to has recommended it as a way to bring in people, as well as continuing to do esthetics. I was recently complaining to a psychic/healer that I know about how hard it is for me to work full time with my health and she laughed and said "of course your body is stopping you from working, you're not doing what you're meant to do." and it totally hit me and I realized that's a huge part of my problem. My body let's me know things a little more intensely than I'd prefer (I'll talk about it in another post) and ever since I've been really trying to meditate and focus on what I need to be doing and bring it to myself. I think my first step will be writing about it here, which I'm going to try to do every week, whether it be about new things I'm learning or past experiences and stories.
Hold nothing back, this is only the internet for crying out loud and even after you delete it, it will still be there somewhere. But in all seriousness, don't hold it back. The beauty of it being there later is that years later (or even just months or days) you can go back to it & laugh, think about what you have learned and how you have grown.
ReplyDeletePeople are opinionated (as we both know), but just remember everyone is welcome to their own ideas -- people can think you are crazy or insane, so what? If you don't let the real you out there that is less for others to love (and at the same time less for some to hate, ha).
I may not completely understand your life journey, but there is no reason I have to. I can tell you this though, it sounds like fun... way more fun than my daily life. Meditation and all that jazz is amazing, I have been doing yoga in the mornings before work & come to love it -- it is amazing (I'll post about that soon).
Keep up the writing, I'll be sure to keep reading :)
Thanks Heather :) I feel the same way, I just have to remind myself of it sometimes.
DeleteI'm still hoping to get into a routine like you are with yoga! It's such a good way to start your day, physically and mentally, it's just taking that first step to actually start doing it that's the hardest!